apprehension

a sense of apprehension fills me this morning. i can't quite pin it down to something in particular, i just feel unsettled in general. i hope to God that the letter bears joyful news. i need to get my life back on track again. just over a week more..

regrets?

i am not the sort of person who regrets decisions made in the past. every decision is made with ample reasoning and as such, there is no reason to be regretful when you stumble over ruts on your road. i am definitely in a rut right now but i still don't think i regret my decision to come here. i am happy here, i just wish i made more out of the experience. i know i still have time to, and that it is very much up to me. i have no regrets, the closest thing i might have to a regret is that i wish i got to meet people like the sort i would have met had i gone to cambridge-- the brilliant minds that i could have met and that would have opened up my own mind. i feel like i am stagnating here, that i am not doing enough for my development. i think that once this fiasco is well and truly behind me, i will put in a genuine effort to promote my own development.